We All Should Care

Accept the call for a deeper purpose.

Recently, I have found myself once again single and let me tell you, I am at a loss! From the time I was 18(which honestly, I was mere days from being 19 when I had my first, real girlfriend/relationship), I have been in one kind of relationship or another with only a small bit of time elapsing between them and now, here I stand again feeling the way I did all those years ago.

I feel awkward and confused. I don’t really know how to spend my days and my nights are rather boring as well. I have been trying to bury myself in my job and now that I have my studio set up again, I shall soon be burying myself in yummy, yummy sounds. Through all this fear and confusion, I am seeing a bright light at the end of the tunnel…the prospect of once again finding out who “I” am. Currently, I am a 30 year old (as of monday) overweight guy with a penchant for writing articles about greens and masturbation. I am a writer, a poet, a musician, a good friend and a great lay (ladies ;D). Ok, scratch that last part but I am those other three things, which you now probably cannot for the life of you recall thanks to the mental images of chunky, sweaty man-love now gripping the very core of your being .(It’s natural)

Anyway, the point I am making is this. When we are in relationships, no matter what kind, we almost inevitably lose a part of ourselves along the way. Just be conscious of what parts you are losing before you find yourself running solo and no longer knowing quite how to handle it. I feel that it can often lead to either running back to the one that hurt you or to jumping headfirst into yet another bad relationship.

I’ve been getting into contact with my old friends and trying to spend some time with my new ones. I have been trying to get back into some sort of shape other than round and am starting to work on myself and the goals I long ago set on the back burner. I am developing new routines for myself and ultimately, I think that the changes I have made are positive changes and will yield results that will totally give my mind a boner from all the awesome that I am allowing to once again enter into my life.

Granted, I’m no expert at this but I’m sure there’s at least one person out there thinking, “Man, I sure wish somebody knew what I was going through.” Unfortunately, that someone is me. *WIGGLE*

Find your interests. Find your friends. Find your flaws and fix them and always remember, even though you are single, you are not alone!